Partly Gripy with a Chance of Silver Lining

I used to be such a positive person. I shall not lay the blame at any person or company's door, but the last six months have left me despondent, downtrodden, sickly and hopeless at times. I know in my spirit and in my head that life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you choose to do with it. Well, I am so tired of trying to make lemonade out of lemons that I sometimes just lie here. My health has greatly deteriorated. My doctor now has me on antibiotics, Enablex, a stool softener, and straight progesterone besides my blood pressure pills and vitamins. I don't feel like eating a lot of the time, because my bowels are so irregular I am just nauseated. I had an ultrasound yesterday. I don't remember ever being in pain throughout an ultrsound. Everything from my navel to the tops of my thighs is tender, front and back. If you are a praying person, please pray for my health, and mostly for my attitude to line back up with God's perspective. The upside of this (giggle, snort) is that when I do eat, I have been craving fruit, runny eggs, juice, juicy meat, soup, fresh tomatoes...just the kind of stuff I should be eating. And I have been eating a whole lot less of it. Thus, the following results in a relatively short amount of time. If this is the Lord's way of getting my rebelliousness out of the way, then thank You, Jesus. Either way, I pray that when I am feeling better I can continue on this new fresh, healthy food diet and add some exercise.

Current weight: 274 (loss of 20 pounds since Nov 30, 30 pounds since Halloween)
Midriff: 48" (loss of 5.5")
Bust: 50.5" (loss of 1.75")
Waist: 51.5" (loss of 3.5")
Hips: 56.25" (loss of 3")